It is August of 2020 aka the best year of everyone’s lives so far right? Not. And I do have to say that these months have been shifting my mentality and perspectives in so many different directions. There are days when I feel joy in seeing the way my extended family has reconnected over Zoom calls, days of boredom where I begin to wonder why I never picked up any cooler hobbies growing up, and days of grief where I cannot help but read the news and cry over the turmoil our country and the world is experiencing. And amidst it all, I have to pick myself back up no matter what emotions are stirring within me to learn about the diseases that will plaque the future patients I will care for. I do suppose there is some motivation laden within that pursuit – some inspiration in working towards a goal where I can still make a difference.
Yet this virus that has brought the entire world down to our knees has me staring at the ground as well. And while I want to stand back up and continue walking down the path of life, I think I might stay here for a little longer. To reflect. To learn. To listen instead of running at full speed towards the goals I set for myself as a mere teenager. I find myself similar to the rest of the world searching for those distractions to get us through this time. Whether sharing recipes and making banana bread or scrolling through Tik Tok videos or trying not to kill the excessive amounts of plants I purchased, there seems to be a universal search for hobbies, for meaning, and for purpose.
Megen's Musings 